Friday, March 1, 2013

Lead me not into Temptation

Imitation of Christ: Book 1, Chapter 13 Of Resisting Temptations

As long as we live in this world, we cannot be without temptations and tribulations. Hence it is written in Job "Man's life on earth is a temptation." Everyone therefore should be solicitous about his temptations and watch in prayer lest the devil find an opportunity to catch him: who never sleeps, but goes about, seeking whom he can devour. No one is so perfect and holy as sometimes not to have temptations and we can never be wholly free from them. Nevertheless, temptations are very profitable to man, troublesome and grievous though they may be, for in them, a man is humbled, purified and instructed. All the Saints passed through many tribulations and temptations and were purified by them. And they that could not support temptations, became reprobate, and fell away.

Many seek to flee temptations, and fall worse into them. We cannot conquer by flight alone, but by patience and true humility we become stronger than all our enemies. He who only declines them outwardly, and does not pluck out their root, will profit little; nay, temptations will sooner return and he will find himself in a worse condition. By degrees and by patience you will, by God's grace, better overcome them than by harshness and your own importunity. Take council the oftener in temptation, and do not deal harshly with one who is tempted; but pour in consolation, as thou wouldst wish to be done unto yourself. Inconstancy of mind and little confidence in God, is the beginning of all temptations. For as a ship without a helm is driven to and fro by the waves, so the man who neglects and gives up his resolutions is tempted in many ways.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Fish and Roses

Yesterday was Ash Wednesday. What that means is that we are now in Lent. We are now in the wilderness. But today is also Valentine's Day. When I went to the grocery store this afternoon the display case had fish literally next to chocolate covered strawberries. How ironic. Today the secular media bombards us with "love images": lips, Cupid, hearts, roses and anything imaginable that's pink or red. However if you want to see an image of real love, true love, look a a crucifix. Love is sacrifice. And that is what Lent is all about: loving more through sacrifice. We have to change ourselves if we wish to change the world around us. The Church in Her infinite wisdom gives us three weapons for this battle: prayer, fasting, and alms giving. This Lenten sacrifice for me is about giving your time to God (prayer); giving your addiction to God (fasting); giving to others as you would to God (charity/alms giving).

At the beginning of every Mass we confess our sins. Before we move on to the glorious sacrifice of the Mass- we acknowledge that we are sinners. To move forward in the spiritual life we first have to realize our own bankruptness. That's how we should start Lent as well. As I was looking through my notes of previous thoughts from previous Lents, I came across this note. It's a note that I had wrote about 2 years ago when I had fallen in the sin of pornography. This note helps me realize that I am a broken man. It is from there my Lenten journey must truly begin:

Today I fell. It wasn't abrupt or out of no where; in hindsight, it was a progression of events that should have screamed to me. Triggers. At the beginning of the week- I got relaxed. Almost bragging, I thought, "I got this in the bag". Gods grace only comes to the humble. We cannot receive it when we are puffed up. We receive his divine life only when we stoop down in humility to receive it. I feel discouraged, beat, ashamed. But that's not what the Lord wants for me- he wants me to be humble. And so therefore, I will pick myself up and conitnue the race. Like a river I will never stop. I'll keep flowing to my goal. Sometimes slow and sometimes fast but never stoping. Always flowing, never bothered by what's trying to dam me up. I've got a goal and a end and I must progress on. The first step is to make a heartfelt act of contrition:

O my God, I am heartily sorry for having offended You, and I detest all my sins because of Your just punishments, but most of all because they offend You, my God, Who are all-good and deserving of all my love. I firmly resolve, with the help of Your grace, to sin no more and to avoid the unnecessary occasions of sin. Amen.

The next thing I know I must do is go to confession. One, confessing ones sins, is a sign of humility. Second, the sacrament of confession is a personal encounter with our Lord Jesus Christ and a fountain of healing and grace. I need grace.